I need a break.

Taking care of old people ain't easy, especially my grandmother is like a dowager. This supposedly wasn't our responsibilities, but the actual one due to some mental & emotional setbacks backed out pretty last minute. It's kind of complicated but the whole situation had to involve people that are not in the picture. So the ones who take up the responsibilities (again) is my Dad. No unhappiness here, I love my grandmother couldn't be happier to live with her now. Just that, I hate last minute things. If you are down with some mental illness why can't you tell us earlier so we all can figure a way?

Everyone is disturb by it & disappointed because you didn't fulfill the promises you gave a year ago. "Trust is like a mirror, you can fix it if it's broken, but you can still see the crack in that mother fxxxer's reflection." - Lady Gaga 

& time is not going to heal anything anymore. 

Yesterday I had this high tide feeling that I need to pee but it's only a few drops each time when I go to the toilet. After a few hours trying to force out the pee inside, I notice some blood! Totally freak me out!!! Turns out, doctor told me to drink more water, don't hold on to the pee & be easy on myself. 

I've been so stress that I really need a break. 

Dear readers,  do you all have any recommendation on home nurse / mobile nurse? Please leave a comment. Thank you!